Here lately, there has been a trend in my mind toward the serious side of things, all things. Only discuss, present, and describe matters of a certain gravitas. If it’s not about writing or writing itself, dissuade myself from posting. Even my poetry, the haikus and such, tended to tip the scale toward the heavy, the consequential. Soul weighting seems the fashion. Perhaps it’s leakage of my existential dread that imbues my notions of what is worthy of sharing.
It’s sad, really.
In such a state I recently, systematically wiped all subscribers from this blog. Such an act is not without precedent. I’d done the same a few years ago. Clean slate and all that. However, there are a few here who attach themselves, like ticks, to the skin of this site. They must be immune to starvation.
I realize that such counter-productive behavior is exactly that. My mother was often wont to say, “You’d cut off your nose to spite your face.” At the time I had no idea what she meant, having started this self-deprecating behavior in my teens if not earlier. I’ve kept up the momentum. I suppose there are some facets of one’s personality that are indelibly etched, branded early for whatever reason.
The mere fact that I’m reflecting on this must say something, though. Right?
In such light, dim as it is, I will therefore award myself a Fandangly.
I blame Suzanne over at her site.
The theory, twice fold, is that, firstly (as I take it), one should not have need of a momentous occasion to celebrate through one’s blog. If the falling of autumn leaves strikes you as worthy – post it. If you should discover a spider’s sodden egg-ball in the bottom of your drained coffee cup – post it. If instead of using a soothing sound as your phone’s ring-tone you use the noise of a barfing cat – post it.
And secondly, the concept that a singular notion can be intentionally turned into a viral meme, is not lost on me. It was 2010 when I decided I’d try and do the same; infect the Web with a word. Coin a term and see if I could spread it, intentionally, to see how far I could push it into the consciousness of the net.
The word I created was “leximize”: a portmanteau of maximize and lexicon: to maximize the lexical exposure of a word or meme. I intended to leximize leximize. My success was minimal. Maybe Suzanne’s will flourish.
For this effort I have given myself the above Fandangly award. Yay Me!